Be careful what you wish for!
Looking back I made mistakes – hell yeah! I worked behind the scenes endlessly challenging senior management and fighting for my colleagues, but they never knew! I was so busy trying to get it right that I lost sight of the problems these nurses were facing day in day out, not just with the job but with their personal life too. These were real people, my friends and I was their leader. I failed them.
In short I hated it, the responsibility, the pressure, the targets and the feeling that you are completely alone in a role that no one supports. I missed my patients. I was stressed and my health suffered. My family life and my marriage suffered. One day I walked away from it all, I left the job, the marriage, my home and I went on retreat.
The healing journey
Here’s where my life began again, don’t get me wrong, I’m sparing you the details of the “twilight zone” but needless to say I began to unravel my feelings of failure and slowly began to realise I didn’t fail anyone, the system failed us all. Putting nurses in management roles with no training or support is unfair, unsustainable and unthinkable in any other corporate business!
I work with my clients to help them find balance within their body and their life. I offer a clinical reflexology service (which aims to work with clients with long term health conditions, pregnancy & palliative care) in the most relaxing, nurturing environment, I will hold space for you to just be or to be heard, if that is your need at that time, I do not offer counselling but can refer if necessary. I am home, I truly believe this is what I was meant to do in life and my advice to you is “just do it!
Follow your dreams in life and trust in yourself!
With love & Blessings